I know I haven't posted much lately. You can blame Final Fantasy XII. I bought it recently and I've spent most of my free time playing it. While an ok rpg, role playing game, it leaves a lot to be desired.The character development is poor and I don't relate to the principal characters like I have in other games. Relating to the characters, identifying with them so you could slip into their roles and feel what they feel as they go about their quest to save the world is what makes role playing interesting, at least for me. I just don't feel it in this game.
And yes, I've thought about writing my own game, using one of the game development systems you can either purchase or get for free online. Or writing/developing a movie, either flash or CGI. No it wouldn't be for sale or distribution. It would be for my own edification and personal enjoyment. If I ever do that I would want it to be excellent, which probably means I would need to spend a lot of time learning to write in code and how to manipulate the software I use for the best effects possible and so on and so forth. The movie software, Macromedia Flash for example, is relatively expensive for a hobbyist, so it would mean I would need to look at it as something that was more than just a passing fancy should I decide to go that route. I haven't made up my mind yet.
I thought this was interesting:

http://www.courttv.com/people/2007/0226/plastic_ap.html

Who in their right mind would put plastic across a road ? It reminds me of the tv commercial where the crows; I guess they're crows, shut the sliding glass door and the guy walks into it and the crows, the rascal birds, laugh. While that's a funny tv commerical, putting plastic across a highway could make someone, especially a motorcycle rider lose control and crash so it could result in a felony if someone was injured and the person who did it was caught, as was pointed out in the article. Not much fun in that. I guess some people must be bored to tears and have nothing better to do with their spare time.

Today is Valentine's Day.....
So what ? It means nothing to me now...In fact, it's painful to see people together.It reminds me when I use to buy lunch/dinner over near Parkwest/Cedar Bluff......at a place there..where the owners were very kind to me...I would go there and at times, during the warm months see people holding hands , sitting at the benches and sometimes eating together..and it was all so painful.Sometimes I would get back in my car and weep, the tears raining down my face and curse and beat my fists against the seats.
On Robin and Co today they were showing pictures of couples together. Some of them were elderly. I guess they must be enjoying their "golden years" together. Rose and I never got to have our golden years. My years are bleak, right out of an Edgar Allen Poe poem......I feel I could quote " the Raven " and croak "nevermore" and know all too well what those words mean.

According to the WJHL website the state of VA has an interactive site that allows you to write your own song:

http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/V/VA_SONGWRITING_ONLINE_VAOL-?SITE=VABRM

How interesting....If you wanted to write a song what would it be about ? Mine would be about grief of course...I was listening to NPR yesterday. They are soliciting essays under the title "This I believe"..The one they read yesterday concerned grief, a young woman , a nurse discussed her job and how it related to her own loss and how she believes people need to be allowed to grieve.
Here is the addy if you want to read it and other "This I believe" essays:

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=4538138

You can submit your own essay....The website tells you how.

People have told me I should write about Rose and my parents, write a journal.I don't have the impetus to do that. Maybe others who are grieving should do it, it might help them to reconcile their grief. I don't believe anything will ever help me to reconcile my own.