Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Beautiful pictures of our universe starting with Saturn:

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/popup?id=1884338&content=&page=1

Makes you want to climb into your spaceship and go take a peek....smile.....

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I don't know......
I talked to an investigator from NJ today about Christine. I thought I would feel good but I feel sad.I am tired of pain and suffering.Tired of death.If someone killed her that's someone else I liked gone. Why me ? I am not the caped crusader.I am not the person who should be seeking justice for others. Why can't the people who should be doing this be doing this.I know. Sometimes people drop the ball and people like me have to fill in the blanks.But I'm too old and too dispirited for this crime fighting/crime solving to become a second career. Let the people who get paid for this do it. My big heart is getting old and the arteries are blocked.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Sleep driving ?

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17610098/

That's weird. I couldn't see myself sleep walking much less sleep driving. I guess some people are susceptible to some autosuggestion to do strange things like walking or driving in their sleep.But not me. We're all different though.

The 12th was the anniversary of Rose's death.My friend C sent me an e card, which was nice. Of course I hate that day.I hate all days.I hate everything I hate myself and my life. If I could turn into the HULK and crack the world like an egg I would. I have all this anger in my heart that I have to look for ways to assuage it.It's somewhat less intense than it use to be.It was very intense at one time.Less so now.But it hasn't gone away.I don't think I want it to.I don't see it an an illness like my doctor does.He thinks in terms of my getting well.I see it as a part of me, like something I have that I can't and shouldn't have removed.It's a part of me I can't do without.

I love astronomy. I use to go out at night when I was young and look at the stars on a cold winter night when the viewing is at its best. Of course I was also a very big science fiction fan at the time.So I would imagine what it would be like to travel there aka star trek or star wars and see all the sights.
Of course I also became a big X-Files fan.The thought of aliens actually being here, visiting the earth and interfering in human affairs is something I'm not convinced of.Yes I channel surf at times and see on cable some of the UFO proponents claiming all sorts of things.But I simply haven't seen anything convincing and I have a very hard time, in the post-Watergate era, buying the assertion that our government is capable of hiding the truth from us about it.If someone actually had a crashed ufo or a dead alien body how could anyone hide it ? Why should they ? The major news/media outlets would pay millions for anything like that. So the person who had the proof would be an instant millionaire and I don't think threats from the US military or politicians/FBI/CIA/UN would prevent anyone from selling the story with the proof to back it up.
Too, if aliens really existed , if they're anything like us they probably would have destroyed themselves or would destroy themselves/their planet once they developed the ability to do so.
The Drake equation:
http://www.seti.org/site/pp.asp?c=ktJ2J9MMIsE&b=179073
describes the likelihood of the existence of other civilizations in the galaxy but it doesn't seem to include the possibility that aliens would kill themselves.As Enrico Fermi, one of the physicists who developed the A-bomb reportedly said , if they existed they would be here I tend to agree, but that doesn't mean they haven't killed themselves.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Of course there's always something weird in the news and this one was too good to pass up:

http://www.greenbaypressgazette.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070306/GPG0101/703060562/1207/GPGnews

Man claims to be a werewolf who can change his shape....That's funny.I thought only I could do that. I was a big fan of werewolves. The short-lived Fox tv show "Werewolf" was one of my favorites. There have been various representations of werewolves on the X-Files, Friday the 13th "the series" and other horror/fantasy/science fiction shows and movies. Van Helsing with Hugh Jackman was a recent example of that. An American werewolf in London.An American werewolf in Paris. An American werewolf in...well..Knoxville...hahahahahahaha. Sometimes I wish. I would be a "good werewolf", if such a thing were possible.

Of course we all want to be a hero. Right ? Well, most of us do. Most of us want to be looked up to.Most of us want to "do the Right thing ". D said I am a hero, that I saved her family by moving them away from the gangs and the drugs to placid, well, relatively placid east TN. Of course I don't feel like a hero. I feel like a failure. No amount of platitudes will ever change that. As a 'freebird", Freebird being one of my favorite songs I can't change. I know it's ironic, a little too ironic dontcha' think ?..and yes that's another of my favorite songs, but it's ironic that a song by a southern rock band should be one of my all time favorites.But it is. I know I can't change. Not even God can get me to change.
I have told D that the only thing that could help me would be for me to speak to my lost loved ones.Like Saul talked to Samuel. D says that wasn't Samuel, that was satan or a demon but the bible, as I have pointed out to her, doesn't say that was the devil or one of his minions.It says Saul spoke to Samuel. If you believe in the bible then you must believe what it says is true. So Saul spoke to Samuel.I would like to speak to Rose, mom and dad .I know God would never allow that to happen. That's the only thing that could help me.